Countdown to a new Chapter. Volume? Edition? Not sure what to call it. The cautious part of me is quietly observing. Feelings are shifting. I look at the last time I wrote and I was so angry and full of resentment. I knew it was building and did little to contain it. This rollercoaster I’m on is familiar and instead of letting emotions get the best of me I need to remember the prize at the end. However, I have noticed a change, I’ve noticed a lighter feeling waking up. I’ve noticed I’m actually looking forward to things. I want this change. I need this change.

I shifted my studies since the last blog. Pushing my career in a different direction along with the physical move. I realized I have the upcoming opportunity to make a lot of changes, good ones, and that gives me the motivation I need. I feel lighter, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Instead of waking up and feeling like each day just blurs into the next, I feel like I will have days that new and exciting things will take place.

The mundane is finally going to be worth it.

I’m excited to be transplanting from a desert way of living back to greenery and trees! Shade and life! Nature! Opportunities and motivation to get out and explore, photograph everything I can, lay in the shade listening to the birds, sit in a rocking chair on a back porch listening to the wind in the trees. Hearing mother nature come alive again.

I always said; I never understood what the appeal was of traveling to mars. You can always just come to the desert and live through a summer. It’s just as miserable. And ugly.

Travel begins tomorrow, the first step in exploring new territory. Not exactly excited to fly but am excited to venture out and be in a new – and hopefully – beautiful place, even if it is just for a few days and most of it will be spent driving.

On a side note, the new classes I’m taking keep me on my toes a lot more, and I was able to complete a Final Project early and achieve my very first Certification in a series of four. It feels like I’m finally crawling out from under the dark cloud that had been following me around for a while. I’m not one who loves a major change in routine – but when I AM done with something, I need a change as soon as possible. Looks like I’m getting the chance, and very soon!